There is this guy on this forum that I visit. A while back I wanted to post about a little girl that has Cystic Fibrosis, a disease that will probably kill her before she is 30 year old or soon after that age. I had helped in a small way, in arranging a meeting with Céline Dion for this little girl and yet she didn thave the money to get there. She had a story printed in two Jacksonville papers in Florida and posters around the city leading people in Florida to make donations for this little girl. So I thought that there would be nothing better than to go to Céline's most devoted fans directly and see if they wanted to help. I was surprised to have the topic deleted and have an administrator tell me that I had no proof that this was an actual situation so that if I gave them permission I could probably post the topic. I messaged the guy who runs this message board with a link to one of the stories that was in teh paper and told him that he was more than welcome to make a phone call to the Jacksonville Chapter of teh Cystic Fibrosis Foundation and get some information. The guy messaged me back saying that he woudl not allow me to post the story or request for dontations on his site because there were so many fans that would like to meet Céline but never would have the opportunity to do so and that he had had a hard enogh time writing to Feeling Productions at all.
Basically this guy said that because other regular, not ill people would never have the chance to meet Céline and because he couldn't succeed in getting her management's attention and we could, that he was not going to let me see if anyone wanted to donate a little money to be a part of making this little girl's dream come true.
Then a friend of mine opened a forum on her website because often times her tagboard was full of people conversing. Some people who visited her site a lot and who also visit the celinecommunity forum registered on her forum which she calls the lounge. Bruno, the same guy who shot me down to post about the little girl, registered at her forum and told all of the members that if they continued to post with the other board they would be deleted and banned from the biggest online Céline Dion fan community (CC). So I got into her drama when really I should have been brave enough to confront him about my own anger and frustration.
I just don't understand why people can't get over themselves to help someone who really has a reason or really needs or deserves to meet someone-- or to have the experience of something. Why can't people put themselves aside and decide "I'll be a small part of someone else's drea come true if there is a chance that mine never will come?" I mean I just don't understand why people can't just mature and grow up. It has to be about "me" all the time in a lot of people's lives. it can't be about someone else. Even when people die these days it is about the people who have to deal with the death. We cry because we'll miss OUR loss. Not because the person is not living anymore or won't get to do things but because WE miss them and want them there? Are we just selfish beings? I keep wondering that. Why can't we all love and be loved and not just love ourselves.
I think it is right that today more and more people are thinking the wrong way. We're not focusing on anyone's happiness but our own lately. We're so concerned with "what career is right for me" or "what do I like to do?" that we don't think about things liek "How will this affect my relationship with so and so?" or "Will my kids be okay with something like this?" "What is best for everyone." Usually it is "This sounds great to me" and a lot of people suffer.
On a better note, although I am not at all feeling well, I went and got some juice from the store and they had "Rain" by snapple! One of my favorite drinks. I haven't had it in a long time and I think they just didn't make it for a while but they do again. So I got that and "Diet Air." Yum! I love Snapple products!
It's getting so close to July. I can't wait! But at the same time I need to work an incredible amount of time if I am going to have any money at all when Kelly comes out here. I suppose I could bum some money off of my mom or get a pay advance from Nicole if I really needed to but I'd feel really bad doing that with Nicole.
Anyhow.... I'm going to go ahead now and I'm going to go talk with these two gals I have on a Yahoo conversation.